Fear.

Umbrella and fire

 

We’ll start here because it’s still happening.

I’m an electronic film and media major and it scares the bejesus out of me. I know NOTHING. NOTHING. NOOOOOOTHIIIIINNGGGGG. I am immersed in this sea of knowledge, experience and expertise and I’m drowning in ineptitude. There’s just so much stuff to know and remember. It simply boggles my mind. These people pick up a camera and make something brilliant and I’m just like “lol so I can hold this boom mic for you, I guess.”

I guess if I could sum up all my fears about being a film major, it’d be something like this: someone in the department, be it student or professor, but someone I respect, comes up to me and says, “What are you doing here? Seriously? I know you changed majors, but…you should consider trying something else because this is clearly not for you.”

I love films. I really, really do. Everything about them is just magical. I am in awe of the art. But it’s not enough.

Really, the only way to combat these fears is to go out and do. Make. Create. Develop a skin so thick that they’ll sell millions in the handbags they’ll make out of me. Okay, that was gross. But you get it.

But most of all, I need to utilize my resources. I am surrounded by wonderful people that are only too willing to help me out if I just ask.


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